chloeinoz Says:

Aug 20, 2008 - Your kindness and sincerity really comes across in your videos.

kirksbabygirl2007 Says:

Aug 20, 2008 - Yeah you said it before :) Do you have medicade? I wish you could find someone to help you. Love ya Netty :)

kirksbabygirl2007 Says:

Aug 20, 2008 - Oh..sorry hehe you said you were on medicade oops!

chamesrichalds Says:

Aug 20, 2008 - Your voice started to crack with emotion when you were trying to say that you envy her willingness to work towards recovery. You are very sweet to post this and everyone watching can see that you also deserve a great recovery so please stop resenting your therapy and instead embrace it. Start working it like your life depends on it.

chamesrichalds Says:

Aug 20, 2008 - BTW there's no shame in being on medicade. When you are humble like this it is so touching. Also, you haven't been complaining very much lately either! ;-)

Italia0185 Says:

Aug 20, 2008 - :::Netty::: I appericate ths video! I am going to write you a personal message after i get home from therapy. So, check your inbox in a few hours!! Love you darling..... xoxo Melissa

Nettylouise Says:

Aug 20, 2008 - :) Ihope your therapy went well. DO you tell your therapist about all of us here on YouTube? LOL

Nettylouise Says:

Aug 20, 2008 - Thanks. I feel like all I do is complaine. Maybe that's all in my head and all I'm doing is talking about my daily life and struggles, fears, and very few hopes. but in my head it feels like I'm just bitching and moaning. I'll get over it?

Italia0185 Says:

Aug 20, 2008 - My therapy was very Theraputic! Ha! No, actually my therapy went well. I have alot of homework to do. And I talked about some childhood memories, that I really was not ready to bring up..... Actually, I have talked to my therapist about you all....She thinks its a great outlet...

Nettylouise Says:

Aug 20, 2008 - I do envy her in many ways, I think she should have many, many more subscribers that are struggeling so they can see that it's a hard road, but watching Italia's struggles and her not letting go, they can see that if they want, really WANT recovery, it can happen, she's not there yet, but she is working on it and by god she will get it if it takes everything she's got. Like I said she is a fighter and I envy that too. I look up to her. I can't wait for the day when she says "I AM FREE" She will

Nettylouise Says:

Aug 20, 2008 - I have help, but I'm so out of it, messed up, whatever you wish to call it. sometimes I go to therapy and sometimes I don't. Not on purpous, I just have a hard time waking up. ANd when I do, I get and think, ah what the hell, they won't miss me. LOL I need to get with the program, but since my whole life fell apart. I haven't cared about anything since I've been here. Exept my boys. I of course love my family too, I just keep to myself more often than not. Loner, is that what we're callede? LOL

Nettylouise Says:

Aug 20, 2008 - Thanks. Half the time I forget what I intended the video to be about and I start talking about one thing and end up with another. My doc blames that one ADHD. But I know it's way to late in life for me to have gotten Scitzophrenia from my father, but I'm sure that's the cause of some of the other crap in my head. LOL

Nettylouise Says:

Aug 20, 2008 - You made a funny haha. I'm glad your therapist supports us. I feel YouTube or talking to my camera LOL is a great outlet since I dont' trust anyone else. I haven't told my therapist about it for fear that he may one day search and find my channel watch my videos, see my really bad off ones and send me away, I don't know what could happen. I can never be to safe and I never trust anyone. Especially therapists. Well ones that work for the state. Only in my short experience so far.

Nettylouise Says:

Aug 20, 2008 - When I was married and had great insurance. Ins. was paying big $ to high priced Physiatrists it was different, they give the best care possible, they have to for the money they charge LOL. They don't want to be sued. LOL (JOKE) I'm not saying that the state funded docs and therapists are just terrible, but I have noticed that they sort of put you in a category and treat you as another statistic. though my own therapist is a little different. He is a little on the weird side. But In a good way.

Nettylouise Says:

Aug 20, 2008 - I've been told by two other staff & my Case Manager that they have never seen him so over protective over anyone else the way he is with me. I mean he calls to check up on me on his day off, e-mails me, & just finds reasons to check on me. I hate myself but have always been told that I am very likeable, but that's after you get to know me. Before you know me, you would be afraid to even approach me. LOL my brother Adam is the same way. LOL Wow I just typed up a book didn't I... Sorry... NettyLou